Bday Bash!!!!!!!!

okie... i feel obliged to blog about it, but i have to get through today first b4 blogging about the 3 days i celebrated my bday. and as chen yi did not send me the pictures yet, and i have yet to receive another set of bday pitures from CK who is currently working at this hour of the day, i really don have a lot to post here for this particular title.. and i am guessing more pictures will come from tonite's bbq steamboat with my other part of friends. so... will be updating much later.

ciao~ cheers!

The Thoughts Not Spoken

maybe i should just give up trying to advice people from jumping into the grave they dug themselves.
maybe i should just say have no opinions whatsoever and just be a dumb witted gal that says, "yeah, u are right. omg, u're like, so so smart!"(bimbo much?)
maybe i should just shut the hell up and just nod at everything.
maybe i should just be the majority instead of the minority.
maybe i should just don care much about what's happening and let things rot as it is.

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maybe i shouldn act as myself and be someone else. guess it would be easier that way.

maybe i shouldn't be posting this post, and why the bloody hell am i sitting here writing this thing anyway?

People are hard to comprehend..

isnt it so true? people are just such complex creatures. some are good, some bad, some so fake, some just think so big about themselves that it's sickening to listen to them talk. not to mention those that thinks they know a lot, and gone through a lot, and makes no qualms about letting people around them know it. the thing is, "a wise eagle hides its talons" this is a saying that means, a wise man/woman never shows their true strength but only shows it when it is needed. but, while we view people that way, we might just have some of those qualities too. i guess everyone has the good and evil in them. it's just up to us to act one which side, would we be good? or would we be bad? or are we the type that couldn't care less what people around us think or feel?

i care about what people think or feel. but i guess i'm vindictive at heart. i care for those who deserve it. step on my tail once, say sorry, i'm ok. but u do that too many times, i'm sure to snap back one day.

while all of us friends do get sarcastic with each other(and we all know perfectly that it's just for laughs), it is NOT OK to be sarcastic all the time. when a person sincerely asks a question, they deserve to be answered with respect. NOT to be treated with sarcasm. can u imagine, u sincerely ask a question to which u desperately need an answer for, eg :: "hey, why did the lecturer start the lectures so early?" only to be sarcastically answered back, "it's not like u listen to the lectures anyway." i don noe, once or twice is something to laugh about i guess. but all the time? the person asking the question would be fed up don u think?

another thing which concerns me is that, some people are those kind that will just simply leave their life behind n start a new one. what i mean is that, there are people who could just simply forget about their friends, and leave them behind, then start to get to know new friends. i happen to know a friend who could do this. he just kinda slips away into some other state after our STPM and nobody heard where he went to. although we knew he had problems before that and try to help him, but he just slips further and further away. irresponsible and childish, no? but who are we to judge how he should live his life? a friend can only do so much to help. i guess we sorta forgot about him after that, since our help was not welcome. lol..

well, i'm not a saint, i realise i do have my own faults. but all i noe is that, while i do complain about my life being boring, and hard, i do realise what i feel now is just a mere barrier compared to what i'm going to face in the future. career and relationships. i don think the hardships i have now can even be compared to what my parents went through last time. 23 years old is quite young still, and i have a lot more to learn.

i guess this topic is a little controversial. but it's just a thought. don think too much about it.

Bye Bye

i cant help but marvel at mariah carey's songs... every album is good, if not good, then passable. her newest album, E=MC2 has some good songs, i think the most prominent one is :: Touch My Body. and, no, i'm not blogging about that song. i'm talking about :: Bye Bye. i guess this song is directed mainly to her grandparents,(could be deceased already, i'm not sure) lyrics are as follows::


This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:] I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye


my maternal grandparents took care of me for about 3 years, from age 5 to 8. although it's a short time, but my bro and i was the apple of their eye. my brother used to follow my grandpa to "padang" to eat the laksa there. and my grandma? well, i remember being spoonfed at age 8. normally after lunch, grandpa will be sitting in his chair, enjoying an apple, cut by my 3-kim. and i will always be offered a piece of it. and while enjoying that piece of apple, i will relate my day at school to him, and he'll keep encouraging me. i was spoilt by them, i noe. but in the meantime, i learnt a lot from them too. i love my grandparents. i cried heaps when my grandpa died of colon cancer when i was 8. i still remember that emotion up til now. and i still have blurry vision as a result of tears building up when i talk about my grandpa.

i know that sooner or later my grandma will be gone too. and when the time comes, i hope this song will help me pull through that hard time. and i hope, when that time comes, i have the courage to say "bye bye"

ramblings.. and boredom..

just found out that boredom can lead to many problems. when u're bored, u tend to be a little cranky.. and tend to snap at others for whatever small reasons. especially if that reason is something that u hate. or something that makes u feel even more bored. my formula goes like this ::

boredom
+ no classes
+ no part time work
+ only 1 one-hour piano lessons every week
= unhappy, cranky, grumpy boring Joyce.

unless it's during the times i spent with "YOU". loving it every minute. if flies by so fast.. wish i could capture it and freeze time.

anyway.. i miss my college friends. i wanna spend more time with them.. sob.. miss the times we made fun in class so much!! somehow.. problems do not seem to exist whenever i'm with them. we had so much fun. one thing about my college friends, i feel that they don expect much out of each other. and respect was always there. and when one has a problem, even though we don expect each other to help out, but we still do. somehow, we don feel pressured helping each other out. and birthdays are always celebrated, even though it's not on the bday gal/guy's tab. it's so nice thinking back to all the birthdays we had together.. we had so much fun.. miss each and everyone of u, chen yi, ann gie, junie, ee lin, ying, huei, ee lin, and not to forget zhu guan.. i guess without him, it's not going to be as fun as he's always the one cranking jokes.

and chen yi is leaving for australia soon. gonna miss her heaps *cries silently* gonna miss the mountains on her face, and also the way her eyes shine when she sees food. (i admit i'm like that too.. though i wont show it in front of her =p)

i will still b seeing junie, ann gie, and ee lin more, since we all ended up in INTI together. as usual, we'll be helping each other out. i am so so thoroughly GLAD that we're in Degree together. saves the trouble of getting to understand new coursemates. aim for AUSTRALIA gals!! let's aim for that scholarship together!!



"i fell in love with ur eyes, u noe? it never fails to fascinate me"
with a tender look in his eyes, the guy pauses, took the gal's face in his palms, and replied,
" i fell in love with you"
he had no idea what that did to the girl.. smiling mistily, almost close to crying, all she can do is hug him. expecting him to reply something else altogether, she never knew he could feel so much, what his eyes could reveal so much when he said those words. if there were any doubts before of his love towards her, the look in his eyes when he said those six words washed them away.

above was a part i took out of some novel i'm reading. and yes, it's a "ham sup" novel (courtesy to ban's nickname for most of the romance novels i bought)

well... nothing else to write.. so gonna end this post. tata!