Laziness...

I CAN NEVER BE A GOOD BLOGGER... yep... i'm just way too lazy to update my blog. =.='' seriously, i think it's the placing of my laptop.. I'M CURENTLY SITTING ON THE FLOOR TYPING THIS. that is not good for my posture and my back. i need to apply a new line... and fix up the cables to my study room. my back has been giving me signals that if i continue going on like this, i'll have crooked spine sooner or later. which, inadvertantly gets me to the point of money. I NEED $$!!!

i just spent rm 115 on just one skirt from esprit (couldn resist the 50% off) and another rm 30 on a sandal from Vincci(gotta hand it to them, they produce cheap but GOOD sandals) Went to Queensbay with dominique,danny,amy and eddy. AND!!! i saw one top from GAP!!!! baby blue in color.. i want it i want it i want it!!! but unfortunately, i din bring enuf cash with me. oh well, gonna go grab it next week. (CNY is usually my shopping spree time.Do not lecture me on spending conservatively at this time. it'll just go in one ear and out the other in the space of one nanosecond) and at this very second i'm typing this blog, my boyfriend is complaining that the top is too revealing. (typical male =.=''')





=.= after all the shopping and window shopping, i do indeed feel that i am getting brand conscious. and a lil bit materialistic. but i'd rather spend more on just one suit that'll last me then on one whole bunch that'll run color on the first wash. or became some unknown thingy that went through the wringer, or shrink up to the size of a baby suit.

shirley!!!!! what a surprise to see u on the tag board!!! ^^ i hope langkawi wont be a bore for u. (i'm hoping it's not for ur sanity's interest. the sloooowww moving pace and the slooowwwww service there can really drive a person insane at times)
be back in langkawi by the 5th. see u there then!

oh ya... and i recently listened back to leo ku's song, oi dak tai ci. i didn, til this day, know about the real meaning of the song until dominique translated it in his blog(upon my request too). here's the link to dom's blog :: www.dominiqueban.blogspot.com i was stunned. literrally,and firguratively, i was really stunned by the beauty of that song.it really reflects on the way live is led, the small nothings that we tend to miss out. that small nothings could not mean anything to us, but until the day we lose it, we will know the true meaning of those small nothings. and then, we'll regret the loss of it. "in our life, we'll meet 3 friends. the first, we will meet 'loss', then we'll meet 'regret', and at last, we'll know 'cherish'." how true, dont u think?

i'm sleepy... been out whole day... i need sleep!!! kayz.. i guess this is all there is to it. try listening to the song. and know the meaning of it. i promise u, it'll be worth the effort. it touched my heart in so many ways.

no songs this time... i am tired. =.=''

FREEDOM!!!! ~

I’M FREEE!!!!! Finally!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!~ hmmm…. Been kinda wandering around aimlessly past few days after the exam.. and went kai kai too ^^ somehow, this holiday seemed a little bit boring.. why is it that I have so many agendas on my mind when I’m studying for exams but when it’s really over, I sorta forgot all about the places I wanna go, and end up with the word “cincai la, go anywhere also can”. =.=’’

I think I noe why, no $$. Zzzzzz sucks.

Cyi have been complaining I didn blog when I have the free time now.. sorry noh, lil sistah.. ur big sis been playing maple and going out after exams. So, don really have the time to blog.. but don worry, there’s gonna be a lot to blog after I come back from langkawi.. I’ll be saving my blogs in Words first, then will publish it when I reach pg… gonna miss u guys!!! Sobs. =’’(

One weird and funny(if not, unlucky) thing happened two nites ago. I got stuck between my apartment door and the iron gate when I was attempting to go out. Stupid me, I forgot to bring the keys out, and locked myself out. Not really outside, but not really inside either.. I was in between!!!!!!! And cant do anything about it. Zzz this is one sedih case, which I think I would laugh at if it were to happen to other friends. But hey, it taught me one lesson :: I learnt an 007 skill that nite!! My friend n I tried to use a card (poor sushi card, it’s bent beyond recognition. But at least, after the bad food there, it’s still got a use!!!) well, we did try it for a long time, and my friend gave up, saying “takkan so easy to open meh” =.=’’ but I didn give up!!! (the obstinate me refused to give up. Dunno why, but I got a feeling that it’s gonna open up anytime soon) and what do you know… it really did. I was talking and laughing all the way when I was trying to get the card at the right angle, and suddenly, out of a sudden, click! the door opened up!!!! I was so stunned that I stared at it for a second before rejoicing!!! Lol this is what u call a PRO at work. ^^

I still keep the card, it proves lucky!!! It’s gonna be my lucky card. ^.^

Ok, it’s a little bit late for this, but, JAY’S NEW ALBUM ROCKS!! Not to mention that his undecipherable uttering are back!! That’s the way, ah huh ah huh! Love those undecipherable utterings. It’s soooo his style! Here’s my favourite song from the album ::


it's a sad song, but hey, sad songs are the best songs right? ^^

reflections on some aspects of life =.=''

i believe, what my friend told me was true.. that someone has got to know their own strength and weaknesses. to be confident is one good thing. but being overconfident is everyone's downfall. that can be proven way back to the past kings and sultans or whatever. but i think napolean bonaparte has proven that statement enough. being too confident of yourself is really a disease to avoid. not only it make you fall, it makes you look like a fool at the end of day. i've been over confident of my self before, i don deny it. but i've learnt through it.

that statement said, i think it is a very sad thing that most people do not heed people's advice and think that their always right. i think i've been like that once before also. i'd like to think i've changed. but i feel there are some times that i dont heed other's advice as well. but that is to an extend of not hurting myself. some people are just plain stubborn and not listening to reason. isn't that just sad? i mean, life is an every learning process. why is it so hard to just try out what people suggests/advices and find out if it's really as good a choice as they sae it is?

but enough said about that. had a major surprise last nite!! lolz. a friend said he was going to play some DotA.. so, patiently waited to discuss some things in msn later... waited n waited, but there was no response!! (actually, another friend of his was bluffing me all the way. =.= piangz... si gui. make me wait whole nite) and then... worried that he might have met with some misfortunes, i smsed him. NO REPLY!!

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the next thing i knew, he called up, saying there's someone at the the door. and i opened up my apartment's main door.. and... lolz it was him. he drove back from KL that nite but didnt inform me!! majorly to give me a surprise. nothing much. but i was. really surprised. that made up for the boring and sick weekend i had. thanks for making it a memorable day/nite/midnite/whatever u wanna sae it to be. ^.^ really glad to see you there. a big surprise it was.

EXAMS! and all the dread it brings ....

had the most boring weekend and week day of my life. last weekend was filled with studying. *dorts* yea... boring. BORINGGGGGG! hmm... exams are around the corner, but i'm already thinking of what to do after that. swimming in ann gie's place!!! *wheeeeeee* barbecue! *double wheeeee* hmmmm am sick now... been down with flu since sunday night. skipped monday class, and ended up with fever today. zzzzzz this is not good. i am weak! gotta get more vitamins? LAWL..

exams!!! i think that's why i'm sick. i think i'm cursed to have exam blues. i am always sick whenever exam's approaching. think must have been some teacher which i made angry in my past life. could be cursed by that. =.=

btw, did i mention that i am so dead? i only managed to finish reading/doing statistics 2. and now, i am focusing on finance. and i don know what the paper is trying to tell me =.=ll swtness. i missed the last lesson with mr mark! sob... he seems like a nice person to talk to. very funny la this sir. but the questions he gave... =.='' all KBKK questions. ah mark wan fail us meh. !!!!!!!

but even though exams are around the corner, i'm happy!!! coz after that i get to be free again!! hehe... maybe go on badminton spree... mr kwan toh kit better watch out.. u're gonna be my smashing target. muahahahahahhaha.. >.< hmmm... barbecue the whole nite? by the beach? or maybe take a drive to juru and see what is there... been planning to go there long time ago.
*dongggggggg* come back joyce. get ur focus back to E-X-A-M-S!! =.=

been listening to oldies recently. this song was recommended to me by mr kwan:

It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
when i turned to leave
i couldn't believe my eyes
standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face

(And) i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

you said hello
then u asked my name
i didn't know if i should go all the way
inside i felt my life have really changed
i knew that it would never be the same
standing there i didn't know what to say
first time looked away when i whispered your name

one hello changed my life
i didn't believe in love at first sight
but you've shown me what is life
and I now i know my love (i know it's coming right)

She knows...

U tell me u’re in love with me,
Like u cant take away ur pretty eyes away from me,
It’s not that I don wanna stay,
But when u come too close I move away.

I wanna believe in everything that u sae,
Coz it sounds so good.
But if u really want me, move so.
There’s things about me u just have to know

Sometimes I run,
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I’m scared of u,
But all I really want is to hold u tight
Treat u right,
Be with u day and night,
Baby all I need is time.


I don wanna be so shy,
Everytime I am alone I wonder why
Hope that u will wait for me,
You’ll see that, u’re the only one for me

I’ll just hang around and u’ll see,
There’s no where I’d rather be,
If u love me, trustingly
The way that i, trust in u

Somehow, that lyrics suits her. She’s so used to her freedom and her own company that any person who tries to invade her own private world will be met with resistance. It’s her natural instinct. A wall that separates her and protects her from the harsh, harsh world outside. She is confused.. love is a forbidden fruit that is in her reach. Once she eats it, she’s had it. But if she doesnt eat it, she knows she will be overcome with temptation so strong, it’s just so hard to deny. so what is she to do? what will she do? to take, is to give, and she noes that. is she willing to give more than what she thinks she will? she has yet to noe the answer..

Uncertainties..

and for once, she feels warmth.. she feels comfort.. is this what love feels like? she knows she doesnt deserve it. "get out, stay out, don mess with my life" was what she once told someone else.. will that happen again? will the sense of being captured, tied, and bound to obligations be the cause for taking flight and running away again?

confusion

indecisiveness

and... regret might not be too far away..

but what is that warm feeling? what is that sense of joy? what is the semi-melting feeling she gets whenever he's around?
it's like waking up to warm sunshine and a soft breeze blowing through the window, like walking on the beach, ankle deep in the sea water.
maybe her decision wasnt that bad afterall. but is it love? or is it just a sense of comfort for her?

she has yet to know..